By Saloni Jain
I am a person who thinks deeply about everything. While this often helps me gain better understanding and make clear decisions, it also leads to nightmares, depression, stress, and overwhelming anxiety. Recently, I found myself caught in a relentless cycle of overthinking. Every bad memory from my past and present haunted me, giving me a hard time. My life had devolved into endless Instagram scrolling and junk food binges, a desperate attempt to escape my thoughts.
One day, while mindlessly scrolling through Instagram, I stumbled upon a post about a trekking trip for solo travellers happening that weekend. Something inside me—perhaps my love for nature—pushed me to consider it. Despite the fact that it would be my first trek, and one of the toughest winter treks in the state, my desperate mind latched onto the idea. Without overthinking for once, I decided to go with the flow.
The journey began from Delhi with an overnight bus ride to Chopta. On the bus, I met fellow solo travellers, each with their own unique story. Listening to them provided a brief respite from my spiralling thoughts, but the unwelcome mental chatter persisted.
As the trek began the next day, I faced numerous difficulties. My confidence waned with each steep incline and the thinning air made breathing a struggle. I felt my resolve slipping away, but I pushed through. Reaching the summit was an arduous task, and I often felt on the brink of giving up. When I finally arrived, the view was mesmerizing. For a brief, blissful moment, the breathtaking scenery washed away my worries. Nature’s beauty overwhelmed me, filling me with a rare sense of peace.
Dear Diary,
Today was a rollercoaster of emotions. At one point during the climb, exhaustion hit me hard. My mouth was dry, and I had no water left. Despair set in. Just then, a stranger appeared. He wore old, unclean clothes and torn slippers. His dark red eyes and tangled hair made me wary, and his slight limp added to his rough appearance. My mind, already fraught with anxiety, raced with judgments and fears. But then, he did something unexpected. He offered me water, and helped me replenish my supply.
This act of kindness from someone I had misjudged humbled me profoundly. It shattered my prejudices and reminded me that true beauty lies within. This stranger, despite his worn appearance, had a kind heart and a compassionate nature. He taught me the invaluable lesson of looking beyond appearances and appreciating the essence of people.
Later, as I reflected on this encounter, my nose began to tingle. When I rubbed it, I noticed blood on my hand. Panic surged through me, fear gripping my heart. Blood has always terrified me, and seeing it now was overwhelming. I tried to calm myself and sat on a nearby stone, feeling helpless and vulnerable.
A group of people noticed my distress and rushed to help. They wore matching leather jackets and had a tough demeanor, which initially made me apprehensive. But as they drew closer, I saw the kindness in their eyes and the warmth in their smiles. They weren’t a gang, but a group of friends bonded by their love for nature and adventure. Their selflessness and care provided me with much-needed support. They offered me medicine and comforting words, and their presence felt like a lifeline.
This trip, with all its unexpected challenges and encounters, has been a revelation. I’ve realized that the world is filled with positivity and kindness, but I had been too consumed by negativity to see it. The news and social media often amplify conflict and tragedy, making it easy to lose sight of the good. But this journey showed me that a shift in perspective can uncover the beauty and compassion around us.
Keep those positive goggles on, and you’ll find that life is much brighter than it seems.
This trek made me confront the real mountain I needed to conquer: my own negative mindset. The obstacles I faced weren’t just the physical challenges of the trek, but my internal doubts, fears, and insecurities. Each step towards the summit was a step towards overcoming these mental barriers. I realized that the real journey was within me. By conquering my inner turmoil, I conquered the mountain.
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This version delves deeper into your emotional experiences, highlighting the intensity of your struggles and the profound impact of the kindness you encountered. It captures the transformative power of the journey and your internal growth.
By Saloni Jain
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